So much to say. Well maybe a lot to read if you wanna hear cancer stuff. My thoughts are pretty scattered so I’m gonna just number them.
1. Went to ER last night for about 8-9 hours. I was so nervous my chemo was gonna get cancelled so I was stressing trying not to cry or focus on why I was there. I tell ya, I’m pretty good at fakin’ it till you make it! We got it all settled and new medicines. (Remember my colon talk… ya that’s what brought me to ER)
2. Met one of the best nurses ever in ER. Talk about being a patient advocate. And to make it better, she’s from Kenya and waiting to go back to do volunteer work with children. Of course I invited her to Kitale. Sent her flowers today to remind her she was my superstar last night.
3. Went to see my Doctor. We went over my scans. There were a few little oddities but she said we’ll just keep an eye on them. Best part, she ok’d me to start my chemo today.
4. When I got checked in I looked at Anne and said, “so weird, I’m sitting here getting chemo and it doesn’t feel like I thought it would.” Truth is…. None of this does. No complaining cuz the hardest part is missing my boys.
5. I realized I need a new word. A gal asked me why I was visiting Houston. And of course I told her my quick stomach bloating, art fair, cancer story. She hid her face and got all embarrassed like I was gonna die in front of her. I said to her, “Hey, no worries. It’s not any different than anyone else being sick. I just have to get more medicine. “ I’m really starting to be bothered by people saying bad stuff or acting like I’m done for. I’ll have to work on changing their minds and attitudes. Yup. That’s my plan.
6. Someone asked what my treatment plan was. I’m not 100% sure. I’m quite confident it’s…….. Wait, I at least learned what cycle meant. It’s means every 3 weeks. Though I’m still not sure what my cycles are. Lol. I get carboplatin and taxol every week for 6weeks. Then I get something (just one of the above) every 3 weeks for 6 cycles. Fancy word using eh?
7. It was cute, Sam was texting me about chemo. And I showed her the IV, she asked, “is that chemo??”. I laughed a bit for sure. I think she was expecting me in a space suit or something. But I guess you wouldn’t know if you never saw it. So yup, I just get an IV with lots of medicines on Tuesdays. Lay in bed, watch TV and chat, then when the buzzer sounds I go back to the hotel.
And that’s that. Kinda boring post but I know…but Paint By Numbers is right around the corner. Can’t spoil you with too much excitement….