Looks like it’s Tuesday again.
Instead of just talking about Africa like I always do I thought I would just share a few things that are going on in my life..well, and maybe a little about Africa cause as you already know it is a big part of my life and it’s what’s constantly filling my head with thoughts.
I’ve spent the past several nights watching documentaries. There are seriously so many on Netflix and every night as I scroll through all the choices I find myself adding another one to the list to watch later. Have you ever seen Half the Sky? That was the first one that I watched and I think it’s what started this whole documentary kick. Anyways, if you haven’t seen it you should..but you should be warned that it’s not an easy watch and you may want to break it up and watch it over a few different nights. Another one that I watched is called I Am Because We Are, ever heard of it? Just watching these two was enough to get me even more excited to move to Kenya. If watching these don’t make you want to do something to make a difference I don’t know what will. Seriously, you should watch them.
Do you guys ever have a hard time turning your brain off at night like I do? For the past couple weeks I haven’t been sleeping much, I’ve just got so many thoughts in my head and can’t stop them from continuing to process all through the night. I find myself dreaming about Africa and what my future holds and whether I will even make a dent in the problems Africa has. I know that moving across the world to love the kids of Kitale, Kenya won’t end world hunger, change the state of the HIV/AIDS epidemic or even guarantee these children a great life but I do know that with every ounce of energy I have and with every piece of my heart I want to do everything I can to make even the slightest difference in their lives.
Sometimes I wonder why me? Who am I to provide them with this love or hope? There has to be tons of other people out there that would be better for the job. No, I don’t have an answer to my own question but I am beyond thankful that I have been called to the job. I am so excited to get to spend everyday with these kids. Can’t wait to continue to get to know them and watch them grow up and chase after their own dreams.
I think the next few years of my life are going to be interesting. With every documentary I watch I add another thing (sometimes a few things) to my list of things that I want to do. Africa has so many problems and there are so many things that I just want to get my hands in and make a difference and be an advocate for those people. I know I am only 21 and don’t have the resources to make the world a perfect place but I feel so overly informed about Africa’s problems and now that I know about a lot of them I can’t just sit by and watch the people suffer from the consequences. Some of you might ask why Africa? Why not America? And I know that every country and person has their problems and I wish I had some awesome answer as to why I love Africa so much and why I want to help the people of Kenya but I don’t. And maybe I don’t have to? I don’t know. All I do know is that through a serious of events I was lead to Africa and after just a few days of being there I was totally and completely in love. The second I got to work with the women in Rwanda I knew that I wanted to leave everything I have at home behind to work with them and empower them. Then, after visiting Kitale, Kenya (twice) I knew that without a shadow of a doubt that I wanted to spend the rest of my life empowering the people there.
It’s crazy how my dreams and MJC will get to continue to be intertwined. Over three years ago when I was “just the intern” I never in a million years thought that I would drop out of college to work for a children’s clothing company and that years later it would lead me to Kenya. Crazy, right? It’s insane, insanely amazing.
Okay, so this ended up being all about Africa and very little about my life apart from it. Hope you didn’t mind me spilling all my thoughts that have been overwhelming my head lately. I feel like I could go on and on and on for days but I know that that would just bore you guys so I will save some of my thoughts for next week..or maybe you guys are thinking I should stop talking about Africa 24/7 and find something else to share about, I don’t know..I hope not!
Talk to ya next week,