I like Houston. It is hot but from what I’ve seen I feel like I’m in Peru. It may be because I’m downtown? Or wherever all the hospital are? But the tree lined streets are gorgeous. Despite the heat, we’ve walked a ton. I bet that sounds crazy to you folks here, cuz the guy at the desk thought we were nuts that we wanted to walk, but I love exploring around here.
David was falling asleep and said to me “I’m so sad and sorry you have to go through this”. I looked at him and replied, “Don’t feel that way. I don’t feel sick. I feel better than I’ve ever felt.” And that is true.
I know cancer sucks for so many and we all have our own story and path. I’m only a month in and I wish I could describe how I feel. I feel good. I feel this sense of clarity. An appreciation more than ever for everyone I come across. A stronger urge to be powerful and make a change. It’s still me, but more clear, less stress and a greater appreciation. I would say stronger drive but I doubt that’s possible. It’s part of me.
So I went to meet my Dr’s. How you pack that much knowledge in a brain has me starstruck. They were like old high school friends and I knew this was the place for me instantly.
I’m finishing up a couple tests today and Monday. All should go just fine, no worries there. And then chemo starts Tuesday. Don’t quote me exact on this cuz David takes over when we talk medicine. But I’m doing DoseDense every week for 6wks and then Taxol every 3 weeks.
I was super stoked about a few other possibilities / clinical trials they had to offer until we started talking about how it may effect some other stuff on my abdomin. Ok, it’s gross, so you can skip, but they had to take 1/3 of my colon out and sew back in 2 places. The Drs worried it may possibly damage my colon at those spots. Ya, yuck right but I guess it’s part of all of us. So we decided not to risk that. Lol
Anne and Lynette are coming down for my first 2 rounds. One gal each week. Then I’ll go home between. I think. Is it crazy that I’m excited? I think I love a good challenge. I seriously do like to prove myself on pain tolerance. Told you I’m competitive with all things.
Thank you guys again for all your prayers which I’m sure fuel my faith that I’ve got this. Thank you for all the posts, pics, emails and card. Every one of them makes me smile. Huge.