The Things You Think About

Ok, it might be a another blah, blah, blah post but sometimes I think about a lot.  A lot of random junk.  Random crazy junk that keeps me up all night.  Every night.

The past couple months nothing puts me to sleep.  Nothing.  Xanax, Melatonin, Ambien, NyQuil or Advil PM.  My brain spins all over the place. Not even with stressful stuff.  Just stuff.

Examples? One night I was up till 3:34 (last I looked at clock) worrying about if the house we rented for Spring Break had a closet in every room.  Did the closets have hangers? If not should I go buy hangers? Hmmm… Maybe I needed to buy rolling rods.

Then I start to wonder why the heck does my face looks so big? Yes, this is a weird one, but I swear I have a huge face. I kinda think maybe it looks so big because I’m in Montana and the altitude is too high? I certainly tried my best to have very little salt the day before.  Hmm. Maybe I just have a big face? I wonder if anyone’s ever gotten their face shortened?

I wonder if I ski a ton and really try to keep my skis together, would I get better?  Maybe I’d learn to like it more because I hate feeling out of control on huge hills.  But then again, it’s fun to sit in the lodge by the fire, watch the snow and read a book.

I wonder about Matilda Jane all the time.  So many things. Too many things but mostly just… There are so many cute clothes out there and when I go shopping I feel like a total loser. Omg this sounds bad but seriously, sometimes I question myself.  Usually my rule is, focus on YOU, not what everyone else is doing.  You gotta stay true to who you are and not try to be everyone else. Because you’ll never get anywhere always looking back and around.

Aghhh ha, I just gave myself a pep talk.  Wow. That was weird.  Ha, this turned out to be a good blog.

Ya, so did you ever think if you didn’t think about anything what would you do? I mean if I didn’t worry about Joe all the time would he better off? Would he be more independent? Or maybe he is independent and I just worry he’s not.  Yup. I worry a lot.

Then I think gosh, maybe you guys think all I do is think about Joe. I don’t mean to talk about him so much.  He’s just… And Gabe he’s hilarious.  I could go on forever.  Like I haven’t already.

As I roll through my list in my head, I’m thinking many of you probably think the same stuff in one sense or another. Or maybe I think that so I don’t feel alone in it!!

And yes, the previous was from a blog I started in Montana. So when we were in NYC we went and got our tarot cards read. You know what the lady said? She said I need clarity. That I can’t think straight because I’m so boggled down with worrying about if everyone is happy, that I can’t see what I really want. And it is causing..can’t remember the word. But she did say I had to work on my spirit. And that I needed a clarity crystal. And of course I got one.  And of course all the girls laughed at me. It was a fun time.

But ya, sometimes I do wonder at what point did I have to start filtering what I said, what I thought, what I believed? When I read my old blog, it is crazy the stuff I put out there. And I still type it out only to have to go back and re-read and delete. It is so weird to edit your thoughts?

Late to get kids..talk soon. Have a great weekend.

-Denise

 

     
Tracy D - April 12, 2013 - 4:13 pm

You need to see the play Love, Loss, and What I wore by Nora and Delia Ephron based on the book by the same name written by Ilene Beckerman. I haven’t read the book, but I recently went to the play with a group of my girlfriends and it was the best!

Monika M. - April 12, 2013 - 4:38 pm

Ah, I love you!! So good to read what’s really on your mind =), welcome back… maybe letting it out in written form will give you clarity?

And you’re not alone… I’m nowhere as creative as you are and I still think about “stuff” nonstop. HUGS!

Brittney - April 12, 2013 - 5:03 pm

I love the way you write and I think you are definitely not alone in all the random thoughts that go through our minds constantly. I personally don’t think you need any kind of face shortening procedure, you are beautiful exactly how you are! I might have to look into getting myself a clarity stone, though. Come to think of it, I have no idea what that is? Is it a paper weight? A necklace? A stone on a ring? I’m now very curious about what a clarity crystal is and how I might go about pursuing clarity in my own life. Not to ramble or anything….oops. Have a great weekend! 🙂

Prencie - April 12, 2013 - 5:16 pm

OMG! Denise, you have me cracking up over here! I love your train of thoughts at 3 in the morning :)haahaaa!

Holly Lafferty - April 12, 2013 - 5:27 pm

similar… yet different.

head size issues? well, i happen to have the opposite problem. i have the SMALLEST head. like a pea balancing on a human body.
and when i thought it was just my imagination, i measured the circumference and it is EXACTLY the same as my children’s heads at age 2 and 5.

and when i’m out with the girls and some takes a group picture, they ALL fight over who has to have their head by mine since my head makes theirs look jumbo.

and it’s all my mom’s fault. she made me wear this ridiculous hat with a chin strap as a child.

Laura shigley - April 12, 2013 - 6:03 pm

Denise, you are an unbelievable person, a truly sweet and kind person. Someone who is real and as normal as the rest of us! Thanks for being YOU!!

amber v - April 12, 2013 - 7:13 pm

I love this post:) It makes me laugh and I love how real you are. Always be true to yourself is what I say:) That’s when the magic happens!

Amanda L - April 12, 2013 - 8:49 pm

Well you pep-talked yourself, so good thing you have it in writing so you can re-read it later when you need a pick-me-up…from yourself! And the worrying thing- we all do it, even though we know there’s nothing productive to come from it. I’d say it’s a “mom thing” but my husband is just as bad 🙂

And don’t edit out too much…it’s the sincerity of your creativity that draws us all back. You said it yourself, stay true to you.

Hope Boyce - April 13, 2013 - 3:28 pm

Maybe you need to color! The not being able to sleep is the pits. My hubby says I have a Ph.D. In Worry and Guilt. I believe you do, too! The crystal is not silly – I would have done the same!

Julieanna c - April 14, 2013 - 5:33 am

Everyone has chatter , that random junk that we are always thinking about. One time I was listening to Joel Osteen and he said you don’t have to think about every thought that comes in you mind. If it fills you with fear, self doubt, anger or anxiety cast the thought from your mind. Choose to think of smoothing else. It was news to me!

Priscilla Bockelman - April 14, 2013 - 4:49 pm

When I start worrying I always try to take some advice that my boss gives. He says “just think about the present”. If you are only thinking about the present and RIGHT NOW” most of the time you will find that you are actually doing pretty well. Thinking too much about the past and the future is always going to cause worry. I also try to remember that if you truly believe in prayer and the power that it has then worrying is really just a waste of your time. It is so hard, I know….and I don’t want to sound shallow, like only think about now and never plan, but it will help minimize worry some 🙂

Ashlee Johansen - April 14, 2013 - 10:10 pm

Oh Denise- your are truly the BEST! I love how real you are. You truly make MJC what it is today! Looking forward to seeing you in a few short weeks- I am the BIGGEST worry wort so I can relate. Have a great week!

Brandi - April 15, 2013 - 9:37 pm

Try some Yoga Denise.. It helps me most days..I’m more focused on doing my next pose than the other 50 million things I should be thinking about.. But then again you have a lot more to think about than me I’m sure.. AND you are never going to make everyone happy. Stay true to yourself and your post. I don’t think you ever need to edit your feelings or thoughts to please others. You are GOOD and that shines above anything else.

L Rosswurm - April 16, 2013 - 8:10 am

Come to my yoga class!

Katie H. - April 16, 2013 - 3:16 pm

Denise I love this post! I think about random things all the time-I can totally relate! I don’t think you have anything to worry about when it comes to cute clothes! We LOVE what you put out there 🙂

Heading Back

Are you guys experiencing the same great weather that we are here in Indiana? It’s been SO nice!

Us Platinum girls have a pretty cute blog planned for later this week and it may involve us meeting up downtown for a bike ride tomorrow evening..plus, I always love an excuse to ride around downtown and eat dinner with my girls so stay tuned for that later this week!

Wanna talk about Africa for a second?

Okay, good!

In just a couple weeks I am heading back to Kenya!

I cannot wait to be back and get to see all the kids! A few other ladies and I will be spending our time interviewing the girls that will move into the new orphanage this summer and I am both excited and nervous for this trip. I think this trip is going to be even more emotionally demanding and draining than any of our previous trips and I am trying to start preparing myself now. I fully expect to come home with a million new thoughts and struggles as I become even more informed about all the issues Kenya has. I’ve tried imagining the things we are going to hear and while I don’t want to go into this trip with earmuffs on (does that even make sense?) and overly guarded, I also don’t want to show up unprepared and unable to not only have the ears to hear but the words to provide even a little hope for a better future.

I have watched so many more documentaries since the last time I blogged about Africa and have started reading the book “Half the Sky” and let me tell you, if I thought it was impossible to get thoughts of Africa out of my head before, it’s even more impossible with ever page I read of that book! It’s really good and informative but it’s a tough read. It’s certainly not a “read right before bed” book..at all. I am already heart broken for Kenya and all the things that I know go on on a daily basis there and maybe continuing to read about it and and watch these documentaries isn’t healthy? I don’t know. I just can’t stop myself. Okay, sorry, I didn’t mean to get all serious! That’s another conversation for another day!

I really just wanted to let you know I am excited to head back to Kenya and see all the beautiful people of Kitale in just a couple weeks.

Oh how I can’t wait to see my little Oliver..

(and all the other babes but I just think this photo is pretty darn cute and I haven’t used it yet)

..seriously, does it get any cuter??

Okay, that’s all I have for now..but, like I said, I’ll be back with the other Platinum girls to share later on this week!

-Kiara

     
Alison - April 9, 2013 - 8:38 pm

Anymore Platinum this week or is that it until after Art Fair? I missed last Friday’s load from being out of town. I tried to catch some after the fact but no such luck. 🙁 Pretty please?? Thanks. 🙂 I’m dying to get my hands on that Clover dress AND the Upstate Dress. Oh my goodness. Those are SO cute.
Oh and that picture of the little boy is too cute.
Cheers to Africa.

Teresa James - April 10, 2013 - 2:32 pm

I haven’t beening buying MJ for very long.But,lets say I have caught the MJ bug,LOL(Im so addicted now)The clothes are a little bit pricey for my income,however,the more I hear about your company,and read on your blogs,the more I want to support it!I love that you are involved in the project in Africa and all the other humanitarian project you support.And even though I do not have a great deal of money it humbles me to know some of my money goes to help make a better life for kids who otherwise would not have hope.Its evident in every blog post how compassionate and commited you girls are.You are truely doing what our saviour told us to do.I wouldn’t want to buy my dd clothes anywhere else.Thank you so much for what you do and the love of God that you share.Sorry for such a lenghty post,but you girls have touched my heart.:)

Eva Asher Tackett - April 11, 2013 - 6:14 pm

I wish I could go with you. I will be on a mission trip some day. Just wish it was sooner. Have a safe and joyous trip.

Hope Boyce - April 13, 2013 - 3:40 pm

I wish I was going with you, but so thrilled you get to have a fix soon!!

A Whirlwind

The tour is winding down. On April 17 I left for Shanghai, returned late to our Spring Break trip to Montana. Luckily, I did not die cuz David took me on some ridiculously huge hills. Way above my comfort level. The next day, I stayed in and read a book.  I will say, it was so great to watch Joe and Gabe tackle the mountain though. Pretty cool sight. We left on Sunday for the Annual Watersound Spring Break. Same crew.  Four years and love every one of them more  with each year.  This was the year I let Joe explore a bit more on his own. Yes. I let him ride his bike with his friends all day. Within boundaries.  No big deal maybe, but too me huge. I worry way too much.  We got home late last night and tomorrow morning I am off with Sam, Jenn and Amy to NYC.  Quite excited about that. Sam’s first NYC trip. Oh ya! The first time I ever went to NYC, I got lost and lost and lost and loved every bit of it. Best part: hot dog stands and a cab to take you back to hotel when you get lost. (Dang it, now I am googling shows..Okay, focus!)

It may sound like I have been doing a ton of traveling, which I have but trust me it’s not all fun. I think there was one day I put my phone away to just wind down. My crew was getting annoyed with me. April is a crazy time of year. Totally one of my busiest.

I feel like I have so much to tell you. Did you know we have been working on our own foundation? The Mighty Acorns Foundation? Our first project will be to help 100 girls find sponsors.   Kiara, Jami, Jenni V and Denise W are heading to Kitale later this month to meet the girls. I can hardly wait to learn more about them and hear their reactions. It’s great stuff. And thank you for playing such a huge role in it. When the boys were there in February they were just starting the foundation of the new home. Jimmy just posted last week that the foundation is now complete. Pretty awesome huh?

So yup, lots of moving parts from photo shoots to orphanages to Fall 2013 to to 435 Art Fair to a Good Hart Collection that I love more with every day.

And now I will leave you with 2 quotes that I am really loving. Shoot, speaking of loving, have you read the Maze Runner?

 

     
Kylie Lee - April 7, 2013 - 11:32 pm

Safe Travels, Cant wait to hear more!

Kayla w a - April 9, 2013 - 12:49 am

Thanks for doing so much more than make cute clothes 🙂 you guys are really doing things that matter! Thank you thank you thank you!

Joy Williams - April 11, 2013 - 10:15 pm

Wow! I love hearing all of your wonderful endeavors! This is an amazing project, that will change the life of many. MJC’s awesomeness amazes me! 🙂

Hope Boyce - April 13, 2013 - 3:45 pm

You get to introduce Sam to NYC – awesome for both of you! I’ve only driven in NY once – my first and last time! I had to drive Jenni to audition for the play “Big” (like the movie) – the flights didn’t work out to get her back to school. But the point is … I got lost in Yonkers – seriously!

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