The Key…

Often people ask me “how do you do it all?” And my normal reply is, “I don’t.”

This has been such a trying week for me. Letting Goliath go was unbearable and still is. Joe and I went to get a kitten the same exact day. Joe was so sweet he asked me on the way home, “Do you think Goliath would have picked this one? You think he would like her?” Just this morning Gabe asked me when Goliath would be coming back home. We all just loved him and now we are loving little Sammy. I am so glad we got her.

On Wednesday, pre-conference meetings started and Thursday Dress Rehearsal officially began. At about 2 on Thursday I realized I had better go get a dress for the party that started at 5:30 and I still needed to run and get all the drinks and pick up the kids and so forth. On my way to drop of the stuff at the gallery my sister called and said my grandma was in hospice and didn’t have much time. Nice Deedee, the timing sucked. My gosh, I was a mess and I had little over an hour to to look presentable. Wow.

It’d been at least 2 days since I showered so I got all cleaned up and headed out the door with lots of Xanax.   I barely remember Thursday. Everything was such a blur that day. But then Friday came, and Saturday and Saturday night and things turned around.  When one asks me “how do you do it all?” And my reply is, “I don’t”,  I really should be saying, “I surround myself with the most amazing and caring people.”  This week surely did suck but had Dress Rehearsal not been this week I would have been a ball curled up in a corner sobbing.  All the girls from 435, the great set of Team Leaders, Lynette, Kayla and David and all the Trunk Keepers, old and new, they all saved me this weekend. They really are the reason I can do what I do. They are the ones that keep me inspired and dreaming big. Without them and you there is no big dream.  Thank you.

I have so  much more to share with you. I’m heading up to see my Gramma tomorrow with Gabe and when I get back I’ll tell you all the great Dress Rehearsal stories and maybe even share a few pictures. Yup, and show you some of Sammy.  Shoot, did you know my camera is not working? I’m pretty sad about that too. I’m pathetic huh? But my dear friend Michelle is having a workshop and I so wanna go. And then Amanda and Kara are having a workshop that I would love to go to also.  Not that I am even capable of being near the level that they are, but to just see them in action and hear their passion in inspiring. I love it.

Good night and thank you so  much for all the kind words. They mean a lot.

     
Anne - January 29, 2010 - 10:57 pm

What an amazing tribute to those around you…truly, you are a powerful woman when you can realize all those that help so much. I’m so sorry about your grandma…I hope you are with family right now.

Alli - January 27, 2010 - 2:18 am

Your clothing line is simply amazing. I just stumbled across it for the first time tonight & I just can’t stop looking. Love the photo with the washing machine & the pink pants too. Adorable. And I don’t know that anyone is reading my blog yet except my mother but I had to write a quick post about your line!

Kirsten Hany - January 26, 2010 - 8:40 am

I am so sorry to hear about your precious puppy, it is heartbreaking when a part of the family has to go. Your dear grandmother is in good hands with hospice, we just utilized their services this past month with my grandmother (she passed last week) and hospice gave her a comfortable and dignified passing. You will be in my thoughts and prayers!
Kisten

Amy Craft - January 26, 2010 - 7:47 am

Denise- I am so very sorry for Goliath and your grandmother. Our “babies” are a huge part of our lives and Gracyn (my daughter) adores them so much. My grandmother was my best friend and when she passed away it was so hard for me…I still miss her every day. I hope you and Gabe have a good visit with your grandmother. HUGE hugs and much love hun!

Denise - January 25, 2010 - 7:57 pm

Oh, thank you guys…love ya!

tree*head - January 25, 2010 - 5:49 pm

Denise-I hope your heart heals soon…letting Goliath go was the best thing you could do for him. Huge hug!

You do it all because of the amazing people around you, you say…well I say you wouldn’t have ;loyal amazing people if you weren’t pretty amazing yourself!

I cannot wait for Feb. 15th!!

Day to the Oh - January 25, 2010 - 4:21 pm

Thoughts are with you, Masta!!! “Goliath” can be a reminder of facing those giants and coming out stronger and better. You will get through it with flying colors… when it rains it pours and then there’s a rainbow, especially wherever MJC is. Beautiful. I feel the same way about my kids that you do about your peops-they get me through. Lots of love and hugs coming atchya!!! xoxo

Katelyn's Mommy - January 25, 2010 - 2:34 pm

How does that saying go – that which doesn’t kill us makes us stronger. Sorry you are having to face so many things right now to make you stronger and stronger! Take care!!

bella's mom - January 25, 2010 - 2:03 pm

Didn’t see the part about your grandmother…..really tough too!! So, so sorry! Again thoughts and prayers are with you…glad for all of your support around you…you will need it.

bella's mom - January 25, 2010 - 2:00 pm

So sorry to hear about Golith….never easy one to make!! We are close to the same with our old guy Elliott….my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!!

Kristi - January 25, 2010 - 1:05 pm

Following every storm there is always a rainbow…sometimes we just have to look hard to see it and sometimes it is just there right in front of us. May your rainbow be as big, as beautiful, and as bright as your many gifts of yourself! 🙂

*TKJT* - January 25, 2010 - 12:54 pm

I’m sorry Denise 🙁 Your family is in my prayers.

Girl, get a new camera…it’s called a tax write off 😉

mom2P&B - January 25, 2010 - 12:01 pm

Denise….having a support system around you means alot. I wish everyone that. And, know that your Grandmother is in a great place at Hospice. Just before Christmas, my family brought my Dad there. Tearing up as I write this. I think that was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. A couple of things got me through that….a great support system and the team at Hospice. The staff and nurses are amazing and that work really seems to have special special doing it. May God grant you the strength and peace for you, your family, and your Grandmother at this time and always.

Bee - January 25, 2010 - 10:54 am

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….

Author unknown…

Though this was a great poem. My Me-meow, as I call her (Nina my cat) is 19 years old as of October and I am dreading the day I lose her. Just know that Goliath knows he was loved and cherished! Hope you can find some peaceful time in your crazy schedule of life. You are AMAZING!

holly - January 25, 2010 - 9:27 am

i’m so sorry about your grandmother and your doggy:(….cats are awesome tho and have a way of making you feel better, especially cute furry kittens:P!
take some time to catch your breath…can’t wait to see your new designs, MJC is just so beautiful!

Amie *C* - January 25, 2010 - 8:58 am

I am so sorry for all that you are struggling with right now. I am so happy you have such a great support system, make sure you continue to use them and accept offers for help. Many hugs sent.

christine - January 25, 2010 - 4:25 am

Oh Denise….I am so sorry. It always seems everything always seems to hit at once. My daughter still keeps asking for mimi our little persian who passed suddenly and so does her sister miumiu. My thoughts go out to you and your family at this time. It’s amazing what strong family and friends can keep us going and be there to support us. All are warmest thoughts are with you.

Terese - January 24, 2010 - 9:49 pm

So sorry about your Grandma and Goliath! I feel tears hearing Joe and Gabe’s questions about Goliath. I’m so glad you have such tremendous support from all the people who love you. Big hugs!

Rachael - January 24, 2010 - 9:48 pm

What a week! Its amazing how God know who we need around us at the right time!!
I wanted to say first, I am a MJ freak! Last fall I was introduced to your amazing line of clothes…and lets just say…i think it is just Bee-U-tee-ful. With 3 girls, I have so much fun with your clothes….my almost 2 year old sees the clothes on the computer and says…tute..AKA.Cute!
I already have a date with my trunk keeper for the spring line..can’t wait.
As a designer, I can only imagine when and how you get ideas for your clothing. I design kids stuff, not on the scale that you do, but its crazy how I cant sleep, or an idea just comes from nowhere..and turns into an amazing piece of beauty!
As I was reading your post about your dog, there was a sparkle in his eye in that picture that screams out I am a design waiting to be created. You should create a line called Goliath. He has so much texture and contrast in that picture..that I think you could create something incrediable…
I know its a little crazy, but its those crazy things that make something from nothing, into something amazing!
Praying for you and your family! My husbands grandmother battle with that, and its a heart breaking situation! Its times like these that we see the “footprints go from two sets, to One!!!

*Twinkle*Toes* - January 24, 2010 - 9:43 pm

You and your family are in our prayers! Keep strong sounds like you have another trying week. Thank you for sharing.

Melissa Himsel (wilbur's farm) - January 24, 2010 - 9:27 pm

Hi Denise, David, Joe and Gabe
I am very sorry to hear about Goliath, animals play a wonderful part in our lives, not sure what we would all do without them? I know it wasn’t easy letting him go, but believe it or not things will get better. Sitting here crying is not helping this situation, LOL! Good grief…I am a waterfall over here! UGH!!!
Sorry about your grandmother, my heart goes out to you and your family.
sending thoughts your way,
melissa himsel

Sundee - January 24, 2010 - 9:17 pm

Oh, Denise. Words escape me at times like these. Know I am with you and your family in prayer.

Kath - January 24, 2010 - 9:10 pm

Denise,

I’m so sorry you had such a rough week. I hope this coming week is much better.

KimD in SC - January 24, 2010 - 8:56 pm

So sorry about Goliath and your grandmother. Never fun to have to be grown up and face reality. I prefer to bury my head in the sand. Prayers are with you:)

lauren - January 24, 2010 - 8:50 pm

Denise, you are amazing and I just love you to pieces! Thanks for a wonderful weekend. So many wonderful memories were made and I am hoping to be able to walk again by next week. 🙂 Travel safely and I am truly sorry about all that you are going through. XOXO

gena - January 24, 2010 - 8:32 pm

Denise, I am so sorry about goliath and grandma. I hope this week gets a little easier and you find a little more peace. With Thoughts, Gena

Robin - January 24, 2010 - 8:11 pm

My heart goes out to you and your family. I know there will be better times just around the corner… Sending hugs your way!

Lil - January 24, 2010 - 8:10 pm

Dang these sad post are killing me, I am like the rain outside.. I cry about everything and I hate it when people are sad or in pain.. IM so sorry!

Glad you got Sammy, we are looking for a kitten to 🙁 also a sad story.

Those key tags look pretty cool I must say and I bet those numbers MEAN something, they are NOT just randon.. I know u better than that. 🙂

Again.. Hugs, sorry about all the pain ya’ll are dealing with and if I had a GOOD camera, i ship it to you.

Nancy - January 24, 2010 - 8:03 pm

So sorry you had a tough week. Hopefully this week is better.

shannon - January 24, 2010 - 8:01 pm

denise, my thoughts are with you and your family. hope this week looks better for you. i’m sorry.

RachelR - January 24, 2010 - 7:59 pm

Oh sweetie, I am so sorry! I hate to hear about you going through such a rough time. I’ll keep your gramma in my thoughts. Lots of hugs to you D. Can’t wait to see those pics of lil Sammy!

Denise - January 24, 2010 - 7:50 pm

I’ll tell you all about the key tags real soon. it is pretty good.

Melanie H. - January 24, 2010 - 7:47 pm

Praying for you Denise & your whole family. I am so sorry your grandma is not doing well.
Glad to hear that conference was wonderful…what an amazing team you have! Can’t wait to see more of the lovely spring collection, so far everything you’ve posted is gorgeous…and if I know you, it only gets better!
Hugs to you!

Amitha - January 24, 2010 - 7:32 pm

Oh Denise, my heart goes out to you and your family. Stay strong, I know you can get through this!! Hugs to you sweetie.

Monika - January 24, 2010 - 7:27 pm

My thoughts were with you all week, I’m so sorry for your BIG loss. I’m glad to hear the dress rehearsal gave you enough distraction… and that you are the proud owner of a kitty already. I can’t wait to see Sammy!

On another note… looky at those key tags (that’s what they are, right?)! Will we get one with our order? You know how Erina likes to collect stuff to hang on her backpack, lol!

Hugs to you, looks like you will have another really tough week ahead of you :-(.

Chelle Belle / Alchemist - January 24, 2010 - 7:17 pm

Gosh, when it rains, it pours. I’m so sorry you had such a difficult week. For me, one of the most difficult lessons in life is learning to ask for help or accept help. Surrendering is difficult, but it makes you realize how much you love and depend on those around you. It’s ok to just take a walk around the park and bawl your head off, too! That would be a normal, healthy reaction.

Keep dreaming, Denise. Your passion not only produces beautiful clothes, but inspires others (like me) to dream. That’s the point.

Hang in there, girl.

Isabella's Mom - January 24, 2010 - 7:11 pm

I am so sorry for the loss of Goliath (a little girl here cried when she heard) and your gramma’s decline.
Glad the conference was a good distraction.
Love the pictures!! And you are really good, I don’t want to hear otherwise.
Drive safely.
Take care.

fruit punch tulip - January 24, 2010 - 7:08 pm

When it rains – it pours. I’m so sorry to hear about Goliath, your grandma and everything. I always refer to my yellow lab as my furry child. It’s just wrong that they have such a short amount of time with us. I hope this week is a much better one.

Karen - January 24, 2010 - 7:00 pm

Oh Denise, I’m so sorry for your difficult week. But it’s so true, the people surrounding you can either make or break you…and they all sound like such blessings!!

Can’t wait to see more of the new line! 🙂

Bridgette - January 24, 2010 - 6:58 pm

Aww..hang in there Denise…so glad you have a great support system. Saying goodbye to a pet is awful…I know. Glad you have a new kitty to cuddle up with and I hope the boys are doing well. Can’t wait for more pics….so excited! P&PT for your grandmother 🙂