I have been waiting to write this post for a few weeks now.
If you had to rank your friends on insecurities from 1-10, you’d probably rank me a good 9 with a high of 10+++++. Yes, I fully admit there’s been days when I can’t get out of the house because I feel like such a loser or think I look like a big dork. I think we all have those days.
But then there’s my small group of friends that make those insecurities vanish. I never second guess my thoughts and know they never second-guess me. I love these girls. It seems, as I get older I value friendships more and more. Just having those few good friends can get you through the toughest hours.
This all leads me to Joe. How you may wonder?
Joe was having a pretty tough time this year in 3rd grade. It was more than a good 9-10 times when he would just not get out of the car at school insisting he just couldn’t do it. I didn’t know what to do. Well, I knew what to do, cuz I have felt like that so many times. I loved when my friend Anne said “Denise, he is just a boy, he is not an adult, bring him home and love on him.”
So many others tried to tell me to just make him go. Man, the thought of that killed me. I myself knew how hard it was to get out the door many days, but Joe feeling like this? And then pushing him out the door? I know how it would feel as an adult, so how could I do that to a boy.
So in short this past Spring was pretty hard for Joe and for us. You know what it is like to watch your child feel sad or stressed. It is not fair and you want to figure out how to help.
I knew a lot of Joe’s anxiety was coming from the typical growing up and realizing we are all different in many ways. I think for maybe the first time, for if only a few seconds he realized he was a different. He has never used his hand, speech or anything as an excuse and this time he did.
A while ago I signed up on a chat group called CHASA, Children’s Hemiplegia & Stroke Association. I went to the site and saw they were having a retreat in July. I instantly signed Joe up and we went.
I was super nervous. I actually talked David into going a few days early so I could be completely comfortable in my surroundings. (Yes, I even get nervous going into new restaurants. I told you, I am really self-conscious.)
Well, on Friday night when other families started arriving I told myself I had to step out of my comfort zone. We couldn’t hide in the room. So we went out to dinner with a few families not knowing what to expect.
After dinner, David and I both looked at each other and said, ” Have you ever heard Joe talk so much? Did you hear how loud he was talking?” It was crazy. It was beautiful. It was pure bliss.
And for 4 short days I witnessed my son drop all insecurities and just be the amazing boy he is. You know the feeling you get when you see your child giggle uncontrollably, the ” WOW, this is happiness, this is what life is all about?” Yes, that feeling. I could see it in Joe’s eyes the entire time. Truth be told, I could see it in every child’s eyes. It was perfect.
I left there thinking “Wow, this is such a huge thing for these kids and their families”. There are so many families that may not even know about this. There are so many kids that need to have that feeling in their life. I have to help. I saw a gorgeous 12 yr old in a wheel chair light up when she watched a presentation for a Walk Aid. This 12yr old and her friend stole my heart. I knew they had a bond that doesn’t happen everyday. You know the friends that we all want for our child, the ones that make all those insecurities vanish.
So I have been pondering how could I help CHASA. The answer? I can’t do it alone, but together we can. And Platinum is going to lead the way. From here on out we will donate 3% of each Platinum purchase to CHASA.
A huge thank you to all of those who support the Matilda Jane Platinum Label!
**PS I know you are waiting for the site, soon..